Untouched Canvases

17th April 2006
He says "Hey you look nice" and smiles.
We meet and then we're done.
Do you know how it felt like
to say goodbye to him after four years?

5th May 2009
I'm fidgeting and tell him what I don't want to.
He is reticent and then he says "Sit with me for a bit sweetheart."
and I do for much longer than he asks for.

2006 - 2009
"You have a beautiful smile" he says.
Me? I'm terrified of him seeing through my heart
so I think to myself What would I do when you're gone?
and then... there is silence.

12th December 2009
He takes my heart and pulls the trigger.
Very nicely done indeed.

22nd January 2010
I move closer to him when he isn't looking
and place my lips on his forehead.
Then I let go.

Now....
I think of you fucking her every day
and when I'm done I vomit out my cries
onto our untouched canvases.
He stops walking, thinks for a few seconds,
shrugs his shoulders and moves on.

Asima - 17th February 2010